Lost Somewhere or Something
There's a story unfolding here in this lifetime of blue
there's a storm coming over and it's trying to steal you.
and I can't take control, because I never learned how
and learning is harder since I'm older now.
what's a world full of sin doing here amidst all of this,
a universe of beautiful, so something's amiss.
reconsiliation, forgiveness, ain't that stuff dead?
sometimes they're so crazy, talking up in my head,
and there's so many things I don't believe in anymore,
my childhood's been shaken and thrown out the door...
and they want me to medicate, because I'm not sane,
but I can't use my happiness, cuz it's not the same?
I'm broken, imbalanced, inside of my brain?
and who are you to judge me, when you fall flatter than I?
just your money to keep you in your delusion in the sky
just keep getting high.
and fuck you for believing in the things that bring us down
you're just like all the others in this damn lonely town.
if I could run away from here, I'd run until I find
that one single existance floating so close to mine.
cuz I can feel it coming as the days seem to darken,
as if they all knew how far down i've fallen.
I instigate happy, but it all turns to hate
and the soldiers, they just tell me, "you can't run from fate."
so call me what you must, you know it's probably true
just belive that i'll rip your soul out of you.
and it doesn't matter anymore, for things will be as they are
and you'll tread the same trails and you'll bear the same scars,
and you can't ever escape it, and nor can you hide
it's simply that voice you keep hearing inside
guiding you in its way, and you'll go right or wrong
because either way, you'll go where you belong.
so I can push you and beg you, and scream out your name,
but i know in the morning, it will end up the same.
once a long time ago, I met your kind before
the coldness, the bitter, the heartache you bore
the childish entities of your past dance around you,
I wanna hand you my heart, but I can't reach close enough to.
it's been such a long time since my words have escaped
it's been a goof while since i've thought about fate...
I watch her stride past me, maybe pull me along with her
who am I to say no, so i'll wander on further
at least I am safe here, for no one can change her.
and where did you go? you're no longer here
I lost you where the path split, a good time last year.
just a few minutes passed, but they turned into thousands
been looking for years, but I'm still climbing mountains.
killing time, losing patience, letting nothing be taken
waiting to find my past, let it reawaken.
well it's not that I stopped loving you, I just can't be
locked in a world where I can't be free
with the other blind, lonely people like me.
and your stubborn face taunts me as I turn away,
here's a thousand guilty reasons to force you to stay
"Don't forget what I've done for you!" is all you have to say
and then it goes back to the same old thing
where neither us have faith in anything.
the silence has come now, but we're both still awake
and I'm laying there counting the breaths you take
but your frightening chill has made it hard to touch you
and your empty blue eyes, they hurt to look into
and your fists are clenched tight with today's dose of rage
hitting the walls while screaming, "Don't be afraid!"
How can I not be? Why are you so mad?
I know it's not me, but you're making me feel bad.
and I can't find the words to fix all that's broken
I can't reach your heart, for that door's been unopened.
World, universe, everything I need to have faith in,
can the circles stop taking me back to where I've already been?
Can I break the cycle and decide my own fate?
Or am I too old, is it suddenly too late?
Can I escape this body to spend time with my mind?
So I can search through dimensions for what I'm trying to find,
and learn about my place in time,
Can I just find all it is that I've ever been searching for?
there's a storm coming over and it's trying to steal you.
and I can't take control, because I never learned how
and learning is harder since I'm older now.
what's a world full of sin doing here amidst all of this,
a universe of beautiful, so something's amiss.
reconsiliation, forgiveness, ain't that stuff dead?
sometimes they're so crazy, talking up in my head,
and there's so many things I don't believe in anymore,
my childhood's been shaken and thrown out the door...
and they want me to medicate, because I'm not sane,
but I can't use my happiness, cuz it's not the same?
I'm broken, imbalanced, inside of my brain?
and who are you to judge me, when you fall flatter than I?
just your money to keep you in your delusion in the sky
just keep getting high.
and fuck you for believing in the things that bring us down
you're just like all the others in this damn lonely town.
if I could run away from here, I'd run until I find
that one single existance floating so close to mine.
cuz I can feel it coming as the days seem to darken,
as if they all knew how far down i've fallen.
I instigate happy, but it all turns to hate
and the soldiers, they just tell me, "you can't run from fate."
so call me what you must, you know it's probably true
just belive that i'll rip your soul out of you.
and it doesn't matter anymore, for things will be as they are
and you'll tread the same trails and you'll bear the same scars,
and you can't ever escape it, and nor can you hide
it's simply that voice you keep hearing inside
guiding you in its way, and you'll go right or wrong
because either way, you'll go where you belong.
so I can push you and beg you, and scream out your name,
but i know in the morning, it will end up the same.
once a long time ago, I met your kind before
the coldness, the bitter, the heartache you bore
the childish entities of your past dance around you,
I wanna hand you my heart, but I can't reach close enough to.
it's been such a long time since my words have escaped
it's been a goof while since i've thought about fate...
I watch her stride past me, maybe pull me along with her
who am I to say no, so i'll wander on further
at least I am safe here, for no one can change her.
and where did you go? you're no longer here
I lost you where the path split, a good time last year.
just a few minutes passed, but they turned into thousands
been looking for years, but I'm still climbing mountains.
killing time, losing patience, letting nothing be taken
waiting to find my past, let it reawaken.
well it's not that I stopped loving you, I just can't be
locked in a world where I can't be free
with the other blind, lonely people like me.
and your stubborn face taunts me as I turn away,
here's a thousand guilty reasons to force you to stay
"Don't forget what I've done for you!" is all you have to say
and then it goes back to the same old thing
where neither us have faith in anything.
the silence has come now, but we're both still awake
and I'm laying there counting the breaths you take
but your frightening chill has made it hard to touch you
and your empty blue eyes, they hurt to look into
and your fists are clenched tight with today's dose of rage
hitting the walls while screaming, "Don't be afraid!"
How can I not be? Why are you so mad?
I know it's not me, but you're making me feel bad.
and I can't find the words to fix all that's broken
I can't reach your heart, for that door's been unopened.
World, universe, everything I need to have faith in,
can the circles stop taking me back to where I've already been?
Can I break the cycle and decide my own fate?
Or am I too old, is it suddenly too late?
Can I escape this body to spend time with my mind?
So I can search through dimensions for what I'm trying to find,
and learn about my place in time,
Can I just find all it is that I've ever been searching for?