What Happened?

What happened to the way we were before?
What happened to the two that swore
Things were going to be different?
What happened to the conversations we had all day
About the things that make up who we are,
To the "good night's" and "I love you's" at 1 am
Even if one of us fell asleep and didn't respond?
What happened to the peace just the thought of you brought?
What happened to the easiness that was between us?

And when did this tension show?
When did those deep conversations stop
And our longest conversations becomes just about sex?
When did the times we aren't talking
Start out numbering the times we are?
When did doubt and jealousy start taking over
And aloneness start consuming me?
When did this feeling of being second to so many people and things
Become my number one emotion when I'm around you)
When did you start being gone more than being here?

Why does it feel like we're slipping back to how we were the first time?
Why does it feel like it's all in my head
But at the same time
Why does it feel all too real?
And why does it feel like it's all my fault?