If I Were to Die Today

If I were to die today, I’d die the perfect girl
the straight-A, club-president, always-smiling girl
the girl who was going to make all her parents’ dreams come true

If I were to die today, I’d die the shattered girl
the burnt-candle, broken-dreams, fake-smiles girl
the girl whose shoes didn’t quite fit right on her feet

If I were to tell my truth today, I’d be put away
Maybe I’d be crazy for thinking these thoughts
or maybe I’d be crazy for daring to speak them