Abandoned

From the current that is my mind
I tried to grab your hand
But you left me there blind
What will it take for you to see
I’m not as happy and you believe
I can fake a smile like no other
A few happy words from one to another
You said you know me better than most
When things got bad you were nowhere close
You are one of the most important people in my life
Shouldn't you know I always turn to the knife
The one thing that helps me escape
Nothing makes you feel more alive than that first scrape
What is it you're trying to prove