I Am Lost

Why do I feel dead inside
Like everything I had is gone
Even though I had nothing at all
I don’t understand
I don’t know what to do
How to fix what I never had to begin with
I need something
Something
I don’t even know what
But I need it
I need it desparately
Its been so long
Since ive been happy
Since ive wanted to do anything
Other then shed a tear
I have no happiness
I take no pride
There is no me
I am not free
I need something
Someone
I need nothing
No one
………. I am lost