I Want My Name Back

I want everyone to give me back my name
I want my name back
from everyone who ever met me
I want to erase my name from their tongues
their voice
their memories
their thoughts

I want no one to know me anymore
I want to be an unpredictable face in the crowd
ominous within people around me
I want to be nothing to others
I want myself back

I want my existence back
I want that oblivion
I want it in my possession
I want no one else to have it

I want my name back from high school lockers
from notebooks
from IDs
from receipt signatures
I want my name back from your phone

I want my initials back from the fence you carved in a heart
from the night you first told me you loved me
I want my name back