There Is a Very Thin Line Between Love and Hate
I fucking hate my mind
I fucking hate how dark and twisted i am
It's sickening how many dead things lay in hiding
But if i let you in
I promise you'll never talk to me again
If i told you my story you'd do the same as the rest
Because that is my fucking curse
I'm trapped in a fucking cage of air
The wardens say they love me
Yet they're bodies scream hate
I'm don't fucking get it
You ask for me and I give it
And instead of staying you fucking leave
This isn't fucking right
What is the reason behind this damned curse
Why do you puppeteers tell me to live
If you'll only tell me to die
I'm sick of trying
I'm sick of not being able to cry
I'm sick of not being able to laugh
I'm sick of not being able to smile
I'm sick of not being able to yell
I'm sick of not being able to show any emotion EVER
Because big girls don't cry in your eyes do they
The other day I found another diagnoses and the truth is I'm fucking crazy
I'm insane with no possibility of helping my mind
So why not go I mean Yolo right
Why the fuck am i still here
Why won't you detach your goddamn talons from my shoulders and let me fucking go
Oh that's right because for some fucked up reason you need me too
But don't worry darlin' I almost hate you
But I'll always love you
Because I'm fucking sick and twisted
So I don't make sense
Yup I know what you'll do
Yet and still I won't trap you
Leave if you wish stay if you must
But remember
I'll never hurt you
I'll never abandon you
I'll never curse you
Because honestly I think I'm to weak to try
(Not)goodbye from the severely twisted and horribly sick,
F.I.
P.s. good luck making sense of my mind darling
I fucking hate how dark and twisted i am
It's sickening how many dead things lay in hiding
But if i let you in
I promise you'll never talk to me again
If i told you my story you'd do the same as the rest
Because that is my fucking curse
I'm trapped in a fucking cage of air
The wardens say they love me
Yet they're bodies scream hate
I'm don't fucking get it
You ask for me and I give it
And instead of staying you fucking leave
This isn't fucking right
What is the reason behind this damned curse
Why do you puppeteers tell me to live
If you'll only tell me to die
I'm sick of trying
I'm sick of not being able to cry
I'm sick of not being able to laugh
I'm sick of not being able to smile
I'm sick of not being able to yell
I'm sick of not being able to show any emotion EVER
Because big girls don't cry in your eyes do they
The other day I found another diagnoses and the truth is I'm fucking crazy
I'm insane with no possibility of helping my mind
So why not go I mean Yolo right
Why the fuck am i still here
Why won't you detach your goddamn talons from my shoulders and let me fucking go
Oh that's right because for some fucked up reason you need me too
But don't worry darlin' I almost hate you
But I'll always love you
Because I'm fucking sick and twisted
So I don't make sense
Yup I know what you'll do
Yet and still I won't trap you
Leave if you wish stay if you must
But remember
I'll never hurt you
I'll never abandon you
I'll never curse you
Because honestly I think I'm to weak to try
(Not)goodbye from the severely twisted and horribly sick,
F.I.
P.s. good luck making sense of my mind darling
♠ ♠ ♠
So this is basically how my mind is thinking right now umm i met a friend got a crush on a boy found out I'm moving and that i need therapy REALLY SOON or else shit will demolish the fan but yeah what's been happening in your lives?