I Am Nothing

Here I am again...
Trying my best just to plan,
This..
How to get through the day..
All I can say..
I'll find a way!

Secrets, poison!
Just like the dagger you poise with,
Emotions, stagnant!
I feel my heart is just toyin'

I have no bond to this vessel...
Other than what I believe in!
Not much else I can say than.
I'm just a walking.. Dead man!

If you ever have sought, the pain, without seeking.
You will find utter disappointment.
If you have ever found nothing within breathing.
I have something point out.

Pain is the afterthought,
Of the traumatic event.
I have found all I've sought.
Thing I could never prevent!

Here I am again..
Passing the blessing of man,
Upon the shallowest of graves
My headstone reads The Damned!

Secrets, poison.
Just like the knife you poise with
The hunter to the prey.
To me it's just black and grey!

If it's just the sorrow you seek
Just know all excuses are weak
The depths are so dark and bleak
Can't enjoy the valleys without the peak

There is no happy without the sad
Putting perspective to all you've had
My bonds to this vessel are selfish and weak
Perhaps at the end it's not so bad!..

Secrets, poison!
Just like the knife that you poise with..
Just like the tormenting silence
Demons adding their two cents!

Here I am again..
Fading right where I stand
Fighting the the growing darkness
Blossoming with all the heartless