Weak

I used to stare at the sky.
And wonder what I was meant for
Instead of wanting to die..
I ponder what i had in store

Now I don't even see the stars anymore
The haze of sobriety too thick
Dull and deadened from internal war
Sincerity could never really stick

I try and I try
To find peace again but why..
I cry and I cry
Used to work just to get high

I don't feel anything anymore..
My heart has sunk to the floor...
My will was set ablaze..
Melting in ash until it's no more..

I have a feeling that I'm growing weaker
We've lost our chemistry, our bond
Like the science without the beaker..

I have no strength left..
To keep pushing onward
I know I'm far from blessed
My innocence was pondered

When can I go home?..
To all the things that I know..
I'm so lonely and low..
Progress with nothing to show..

I have fallen.. So far!!
Can't get back up..
Can't look to the stars..

The devil has won this spar
My soul is wasted
My world is black as tar