Battleground (The Darker Side )

I don't know what's wrong here
There's too much darkness to sift through
And I don't have any way of knowing
Which way to go
Left or right?
I may as well go in curvy line
I have no direction
I'll see where I come out of the darkness
In no particular order, true random selection
Eventually I'll see the light
It may only be for a moment or for a while
The light may be blinding but I'll smile
Through the strike of pain
I should be used to the ache
Its in my heart with permanency
Nothing is greater than tears in a joyful state
And I'm terrified of what that might
Do to deepen my darker side
Thats never left
While I'm on an uphill swing
Staying at the top
Teetering
There's only one way down
Cluttered
Littered with scars
The road is a battleground
My life is a war
I haven't won just yet