Remorse

Fists balled tightly
Eyes squeezed shut
It was wrong, all wrong
Sounds too loud or too soft
My name on their lips
Venom, Poison
Verbal acid
Nostrils trying to deceive me
But even if you've never come across the smell
You'd know it anywhere
She asked me what I'd done
Words stuck in my throat
Running away passed through my mind
Cross-country trains
Vehicular escapes
Getting caught when I was out of money or gas
An eye opens, then the other
She told me to look at it
I did
Twenty more pairs of eyes
But I could only see
The blank ones staring up at me
The ones that used to shine like crystals
Upon seeing me after a long work day
The ones that lit up indefinitely
When our love for each other was first exchanged
The ones that glowed blue fire
When disagreements plagued us
Made us doubt
Made us spiteful
Made us forget
Way back when
Those empty eyes spoke volumes
A thousand more words than what he'd ever said

I barely remember the phone call
But I called the nearest precinct