My Biggest Fear of All

I’m screaming but no one’s listening,
I’m sinking but no one can see,
I’m treading water, trying my goddamn hardest to stay afloat, but no one’s helping,
I’m struggling but no one cares

I tell myself on a daily basis that I have this under control,
That I’m okay on my own,
That I’m coping,
But the truth is I don’t know how true that is

I feel like I’m going crazy,
And I know that’s the most cliché thing that every overdramatic teenagers says,
But I’m scared because I don’t know if this is normal
I think there’s something wrong with me

Maybe I’ve just been watching too many television dramas,
Or read one too many articles,
Maybe they’ve made me paranoid,
Or maybe I’m just bored and creating problems so that I have something to worry about

I hope this is a phase and that it will all blow over soon,
But I’m losing my sense of blind optimism,
And now I’m worried it will only get worse,
Because the days are passing, and I’m going nowhere fast

And the fear of not going anywhere, is my biggest fear of all
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I don't usually post poems on here but I felt like writing something a little different