Weakness

I'm so tired
Tired of picking myself back up
Of shouldering through all my problems
Of being afraid to admit my weakness
Of throwing all of myself into the reigns
And getting nothing in return
I'm tired of feeling alone
I'm tired of being alone
I'm tired of empty promises
I need to work on myself
Don't you think I know that?
But you are such a big part of me
That I can't do it alone.

I need you to be here with me
I need you to give me as much time as possible
I need you to help me heal
I need you to care
To care that I'm crying
To care that I'm going steadily more out of my mind
To care that I am so broken I don't know how
To put myself back together

I want a glass of wine
Or a shot of tequila
I want something to numb the pain
I want something to ease the heart ache
That occurs everyday

I have never
Ever
Wanted to admit my greatest weakness
Not even to myself
So I've never truly admitted it
Even to myself
And finally
After eight long years of battling it
I'm ready to admit it
To you
To me
To anyone
I'm finally ready to say
I need help
Because I'm succumbing to it
The weakness

So
Here it goes
My greatest weakness is
My Depression

I've always seem it as a weakness
So I've never asked for help
But now
I'm ready
So please
Help me
Help me turn my weakness
Into a strength