I'm Scared and I'm Sorry

I've been listening to The Upsides recently
Mostly because I can't find any
And you used to make me happy
But god, I can't bear your smile

Cause I'm too stressed
Not drunk enough
Too caffeinated
Not high enough
And I can't stand to see you frown

I've been sleeping around

Cause Jason makes me loved
And Tyler makes me pretty
And Dustin makes me happy
And Scott makes me believe in something
And you do all of those things and so much more

But you aren't broken
Like you used to be
And I liked you better when you were
Because it made me feel like I wasn't alone

Don't ask me why I'm crying
Don't ask me what's wrong
Don't ask me if I'm happy
I'm fucking not
And don't you dare ask if you can help

I'm so scared
And I'm so sorry
But you're perfect
And if I leave you I'm never going to forgive myself