Hurt

I take a look in the mirror..
I hate what I see
I hate who I am
I hate being me..

My hands covered in scars
From a violent past
And problems that persist

I am everything I never wanted..
Ive tried so hard to change.
But in the end its nothing..
I just wanna turn the page
I never wanted the hate
I never wanted the rage
All I want now is a gun
The streets are my range.
Hurt everything or myself
Which is the better stage
Self destruction
and hate are my cage
shackled to the void
Forever alone I wage

I am emptiness
Dragging a coffin
packed with burdens
I have played this too long
Will it ever end...?
I abandon and reject
Everything Im given
I am to survive alone......

Sold my soul to the darkness that resides
Never once thought it would be me.
Through my never resting eyes
I see everything I used to stand for
AllI have given was for not and besides
Who would ever want.a person
A demon with a formal disguise

Like a monster with a suit
I wear the many faces of pretend
I hate everything in the end
Everything ive done..Everything I want
All Ive given and prayers I send
Its useless to think there is more
Suffering is all time Ive got to spend
time is money for therapy
I dont have the time
To be told im fine
I know the truth
So nevermind..

Forget that I tried
Forget What I said to you
And forget I cried.
I believe in nothing
That lets me survive
I need to be dead
I need to have the drive
To end this bullshit.
To take my own life

God gives no strength
Weakness and lies
Never to be true
never to be real

My house is so empty
All I hear are whispers
Closets full of skeletons
Every single one.is near

I feel the end. it screams from my being
The end of me is what I am seeing