For my sister
I was almost gone
So close to the edge
No one could see the danger
As I stood on the ledge
Around me was darkness
I didn’t know what lay below
But I was ready to let myself fall
Because nothing told me no
No voices asking me to stay
They couldn’t see I wasn’t okay
I closed my eyes
Telling myself this was best
And prepared to die
Drawing a shaky last breath
In the moment before
I surrendered to the empty cold
You appeared
Reaching your hand for me to hold
I let you help me up
And hold me close
Deep inside
I’d wanted this the most
At times the darkness comes again
Sometimes I almost drown
But I hold on when you’re not here
Because I know you’ll never
Let me down
So close to the edge
No one could see the danger
As I stood on the ledge
Around me was darkness
I didn’t know what lay below
But I was ready to let myself fall
Because nothing told me no
No voices asking me to stay
They couldn’t see I wasn’t okay
I closed my eyes
Telling myself this was best
And prepared to die
Drawing a shaky last breath
In the moment before
I surrendered to the empty cold
You appeared
Reaching your hand for me to hold
I let you help me up
And hold me close
Deep inside
I’d wanted this the most
At times the darkness comes again
Sometimes I almost drown
But I hold on when you’re not here
Because I know you’ll never
Let me down