Years and Days
Its been
5 years and a day
And somehow that day
That 24 hours
Seems more prolonged
A larger distance away
It's been
5 years and a day
And I'd like to think yesterday
Was harder
And tomorrow
Will be easier
It's been
5 years and a day
And your love has stayed
5 years and a day
And your voice is fading
5 years and a day
And your image has blurred
5 years and a day
The pain is still insane
4 years and 355 days ago
I tried to take my life
I wanted to be with you
The bottle said take no more than 4 every 6 hours
I downed 75
In 15 minutes
4 years and 355 days ago
I puked my guts out
And lied
I just wanted to be with you.
3 years and 297 days ago
I was accepted into a program
It was a chance out of this town
3 years and 297 days ago
I tore up the papers
And tore my mother down
She had replaced the spot where you belonged
And it made me afraid
2 years and 165 days ago
I talked to your mother
She was afraid
Something was wrong with her brain
She had to go into surgery
The chances were quite even
But the tone in her voice
Said she would not stay
2 years and 155 days ago
Your mother lay in a bed
For 48 hours
Already brain dead
I didn't get to say goodbye
But neither did you
1 year and 25 days ago
I put a suitcase in storage
It had your things
A pair of boots,
Shirts,
And even a bottle of cologne.
1 year and 25 days ago
I insisted I had to let go.
5 days ago
While helping my grandmother
Empty her storage
I saw this little green suitcase
And started freaking out
Your shirts no longer smelt like you
And your obituary no where to be found
5 days ago
I faced the reality
That this pain does not fade
It can be put on the back burner
Bottled up
Turned into a boiling rage
But it will always spill over
And I will forever remember those days.
Today I want to say
You are my father
You will always be
My father
And 10 years from now
When I can't remember your voice
I will still remember
I love you baby girl
Today i just wanted to say
I love you too daddy
5 years and a day
And somehow that day
That 24 hours
Seems more prolonged
A larger distance away
It's been
5 years and a day
And I'd like to think yesterday
Was harder
And tomorrow
Will be easier
It's been
5 years and a day
And your love has stayed
5 years and a day
And your voice is fading
5 years and a day
And your image has blurred
5 years and a day
The pain is still insane
4 years and 355 days ago
I tried to take my life
I wanted to be with you
The bottle said take no more than 4 every 6 hours
I downed 75
In 15 minutes
4 years and 355 days ago
I puked my guts out
And lied
I just wanted to be with you.
3 years and 297 days ago
I was accepted into a program
It was a chance out of this town
3 years and 297 days ago
I tore up the papers
And tore my mother down
She had replaced the spot where you belonged
And it made me afraid
2 years and 165 days ago
I talked to your mother
She was afraid
Something was wrong with her brain
She had to go into surgery
The chances were quite even
But the tone in her voice
Said she would not stay
2 years and 155 days ago
Your mother lay in a bed
For 48 hours
Already brain dead
I didn't get to say goodbye
But neither did you
1 year and 25 days ago
I put a suitcase in storage
It had your things
A pair of boots,
Shirts,
And even a bottle of cologne.
1 year and 25 days ago
I insisted I had to let go.
5 days ago
While helping my grandmother
Empty her storage
I saw this little green suitcase
And started freaking out
Your shirts no longer smelt like you
And your obituary no where to be found
5 days ago
I faced the reality
That this pain does not fade
It can be put on the back burner
Bottled up
Turned into a boiling rage
But it will always spill over
And I will forever remember those days.
Today I want to say
You are my father
You will always be
My father
And 10 years from now
When I can't remember your voice
I will still remember
I love you baby girl
Today i just wanted to say
I love you too daddy