Living in a Nightmare

I can feel myself cracking day after day,
The shards of life are breaking at my soles,
Every 1 step forward is another 10 back,
I want to scream for help till my voice is gone,
I can’t out of fear, judgement and criticism,
The fear of loosing ones I hold close to my heart,
The judgement of being an attention seeker,
The criticism of my problems being so minimal,
I wish people can live in my mind sunrise to sunset,
A day to me can be 24 to 48 to 72 hours,
My days blend together with my crippled mentality,
The feeling of being trapped out of my choices,
Decisions I have made that led my soul to this point,
A soul inside a body chosen but not wanted,
A spirit so shattered beyond repair,
A human corrupted by the hearts of others,
A person of innocence turned into a monster,
A mind filled with dreams turned into nightmares,
So who wants to live with the mind of a monster for a day?