Bad Habits

I used to hide myself away in the dark,
Scared of my demons, hiding from the shame.
Maybe I’d still be there if I never loved you,
But I did love you, because you cured the pain.

I used to stay away, keep my distance from you,
Scared to let go, but you showed me the way.
Maybe we could have been happy together,
But you turned your back when I stepped away.

I used to lie awake at night and think of death,
Scared of continuing my life without you.
Maybe you’re better off without me in your life,
But I still love you and I don’t know what to do.