Venom

Now I know it’s not me; it is you yet again,
I don’t have any faith in how this might turn out;
There won’t be any doubt, the winner in this game
Is the old, burned-out flame that extinguished somehow.

I’ll stop blaming myself so I can sleep at night
‘Cause the storm in my mind just won’t let me exist;
My wounds constantly bleed no matter what I try;
I feel venom inside, the mirror shows no “me”.

I don’t know how to live, I just crash and then burn,
I don’t have in my soul what it takes to believe
Whether it’s love or fear or the hope to be more;
I wish I wasn’t born into this restless dream.

I won’t stand any more of your evil, sharp stabs;
From now on I’ll be cold and I won’t let my heart
Rule over my frail world, that’s the job of a mind
That has been freely torn; it is but a shell now.