This Is Not a Love Letter

this is not a love letter
for a love letter is usually written to show one's love to another
these are simply the things i couldn't bear to say to you
for i fear that i would see the coldness in your eyes
where they once sparked with fire when you looked at me

and maybe some things are just not meant to be
maybe you and i were doomed since the beginning
i'm sorry i'm not the one that's worth fighting for
and it's such a shame that it had to end like this
it's such a shame that it had to end at all

but i cherish every minute that we've spent together
looking at you from the passenger seat rocking to the 70s and 80s
listening to the soundtracks of our favorite movies
turned this little cursed town picturesque through your window car
laying in your bed sharing that pillow of yours that smells just like you
talked about nothing and everything

this is not a love letter
for this is me, bidding adieu
i had the time of my life, even if our days were numbered
the mixture of your scent and your warmth when you had me in your arms
it was a privilege that i can never forget
and the taste of your lips after an ice cold beer
will forever remain to be my most favorite thing to remember

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