Grey

Please just keep laughing
Please look away
Please go back to your chair
Don't say "hey"
Are you okay?
No
What's wrong?
God! Just go!
Please! You have no idea
The hell I live
You dont know how hard
It is to give
I'm tired way to often
Just to smile costs me more
I just want to stop
And take a minute
To just lay on the floor
It feels like life itself
All goes in slow motion
I feel trapped in my own head
Like I'm spelled by a potion
His face won't fucking go away
The way he looked at me...
Like I was some pawn to play
He wanted me to agree
"No!" I said
"Get off!" I bled
He never gave a shit
Then I cried and died
More on the inside
So he gave me a hit
I shut up then
I laid so still
"Just do what you will"
I'm dead now anyway
How does it feel to kill?
Are you okay?
Yes, I'm just fine
What's wrong
I'm not lying
Just go about your business
Don't worry about me
I'm just a little girl
You don't even have to see
I'll lie again tomorrow
Just let me have today
Sometimes I can't just fake my smile
Sometimes I need to feel grey