Painless Death

If death were painless
I'd be gone
I'd quickly write my sweet "Dear John"
I'd be okay
Accept my fate
I'd let go of my constant hate
My hate for me
My hate for her
My constant thoughts
Of what's occurred
It wouldn't be an easy choice
I'd give up all my times of joy
But all the bad outweighs the good
My heart weighs more than I know it should
I'm never anyones first choice
I'm just a pretty face and voice
I'm used, abused, and thrown away
So why tack on another day?
Can't I just go
And feel no more?
Can't I be the one to stab my core?
It's my turn now
To give me pain
I have nothing left to gain