Marvelous

Now it's not just at night
That I feel the world caving in
That I feel the waves drowning me
It's everyday
As I walk down the street
All these speeding cars
They could take it all away
I used to worry about writing a note
"It isn't your fault, mom"
Now I don't care
Maybe I'll never actually do it
Maybe I'm too scared
I don't know anymore
Starting to think I never did
They say you leave behind so many
They say
"A permanent solution for a temporary problem"
But does a mental issue ever go away?
I don't know now
I think I never will
I'll probably keep going
Keep on keeping on
Because I doubt they play Nirvana six feet under
I doubt you can smell the ocean when you're under all that dirt
And I doubt you can write poetry when your heart is no longer pumping blood through your body
And if I can't write
I think I might just die
Maybe there's a light
Maybe it gets better
Might as well stay around to find out
And if it does get better
I could be happy
Or be in love again
And wouldn't that be
Marvelous