Alone

My mind is a mess,
Wires have snapped,
But one thing is clear,
My realization is powerful,

Im alone,
Im empty,
Im ashamed,
Im scared,

I have no one,
When times get rough,
And there's so many secrets,
I just keep them to myself,

All these drugs,
To numb the pain,
And this music,
To cry and let go,

Whether Im in a crowded room,
Or in a desolate hallway,
I find myself scared,
That I'm a ghost in a living world,

Stuck in my unfortitude,
I float aimlessly and effortlessly,
In a baren sea,
With my back to the waves,

I want to say my life was good,
That it is was prosperous,
That I was happy,
But I can't say I've even truly lived,

I've followed people,
Relied on others for a feeling of self-worth,
When I truly needed to find my own,
Dependent because I'm not independent,

I'm shackled to this lonliness,
Trying to find someone with a key,
To set me free from this feeling,
So I can breathe,
So I cam feel at ease.