I Thought It Was You

My world was shattering
And you were at the center
I have never felt such pain
I have never felt so much at once
Where you can't breathe
And you just want to run
Keep on running
But you can't run from the thoughts
I can't run from everything that reminds me of you
Because
Everything reminds me of you
And when I thought I was over it
The slightest thing would set me off
I'd be curled up sobbing
Constantly choking on your name
I want to scream at you
Scream that I hate you
I hate you so much
But I can't
Because I don't
You hurt me so fucking bad
And I still loved you