The Names We're Given

"Jana" was the name my father gave me
After a heroine with pale blonde hair on some 80s cartoon
Nothing at all like me
And I disowned the name the same way he disowned me

"Kandi" was the name my mother gave me
After her younger sister that I never knew
Never had the chance to meet
Died at sixteen by her own hand
In the back of my mind, I was always convinced history would repeat itself.