Hateful Sound

I hate the sound of her voice when she yells.
She tends to say all kinds of horrible things
and not even think about how much she hurts me.
She's the first friend I've ever made
and I am trying so fucking hard
to keep up with my life and her life.
I am doing my best but she's not pleased with anything,
and though she says that her first thought is her daughter,
what she thinks of the most are sex and drugs,
nothing more and nothing less.
She knows she's pushing it too far,
because there are times she says ''sorry''
but it's not enough if my heart is hurt each time.
She's making me feel worthless like my mother did,
and it's driving me insane
to the point I want to kill this soft, kind-hearted me.
Her voice is now, nothing more than a hateful sound,
a poisoned arrow that strikes my heart again and again
slowly bringing me to my wits end.
There is no way back, not anymore.
Everything is lost and I am losing mysef to that sound.