The Days You Left Me With
One Day
I'm curled up on my bed. I can't be away from the phone in case you message me. I threw up and stayed home because the thought of losing you made me so sick. If I don't hear a voice at my side I panic because being so alone is my biggest fear.
Three days.
I can stay off the phone for a few hours at a time but I'm still longing to hold your hand. I can't wait for the next day because I see you but I also loathe the hours going by for the same reason. My heart aches.
One week.
Deep breaths and shaky hands are a constant. Watery eyes had filled the afternoons and long nights were all I had. A formal conversation and me trying not to break. I felt sick and I wasn't hungry.
Two weeks.
We kissed again. I broke down because I felt more alone than I had before because I can have you in the same ways but without that title. You're mine and I'm yours but there's no tie. I'm happy with what I have but I want that final piece.
Three weeks.
I'm so alone. Empty minutes followed by empty hours followed by empty days. I see you in the brightest lights but my eyes feel dim and heavy. I'm so tired and I'm so scared. My eyes burn constantly and my heart is heavy and sometimes it's hard to breathe because my chest feels so empty and my hands are so cold.
I'm curled up on my bed. I can't be away from the phone in case you message me. I threw up and stayed home because the thought of losing you made me so sick. If I don't hear a voice at my side I panic because being so alone is my biggest fear.
Three days.
I can stay off the phone for a few hours at a time but I'm still longing to hold your hand. I can't wait for the next day because I see you but I also loathe the hours going by for the same reason. My heart aches.
One week.
Deep breaths and shaky hands are a constant. Watery eyes had filled the afternoons and long nights were all I had. A formal conversation and me trying not to break. I felt sick and I wasn't hungry.
Two weeks.
We kissed again. I broke down because I felt more alone than I had before because I can have you in the same ways but without that title. You're mine and I'm yours but there's no tie. I'm happy with what I have but I want that final piece.
Three weeks.
I'm so alone. Empty minutes followed by empty hours followed by empty days. I see you in the brightest lights but my eyes feel dim and heavy. I'm so tired and I'm so scared. My eyes burn constantly and my heart is heavy and sometimes it's hard to breathe because my chest feels so empty and my hands are so cold.