The Best Friend in Love

I am the best friend
And I am in love
I am loved back
But not in that way
Not in the way I crave
Not in the way I need
But I am the best friend
So I must do as the best friend does
Make you laugh
Be by your side
Comfort you when sad
Advise you in love
Deal with my pain
Hide my tears
Don't make things worse
Pretend it's okay
It's hard
So hard
Making jokes about my feelings
Like they're not there
Letting you throw my words back at me
Like I can stand to hear them again
Giving hugs and being around
Like I don't want more
Hearing you say no one loves you
Like you haven't heard me say that I do
Letting you so close
Like it doesn't hurt
Listening to your plights of love
Like my heart isn't breaking
Being your best friend
Like I'm not dying inside
I wish
Oh how I wish
I could go back
Back to when I didn't love you
Back to when things were easy
When I didn't want for more
I didn't crave you as I do now
Crave your affection
Your passion
Your love
I wish I could go back
Stop it before it began
I wish for things that are not possible
Things that could never happen
For ever l even if I were to go back
I couldn't change my falling for you
It was inevitable
How could it not be?
You are all things I long for
All things it seems I can't have
For I am the best friend
And that's all I'll ever be
The best friend in love