Homesickness

I do not want to leave Hawaii

A paradise to most people, my ravished

home to me. we left and

I forgot to be sad until i was

gone already—the point of

no return. Did I not

realize the heartbreak? Do I not

realize it now? I cannot protect

every heart I have, least of all

my own.but sometimes

mine is suddenly filled with ice;

cold creeps through me…my chest

cavity is a wet, cold cave

It is dark and lonely

My heart wears red where

all the light is blue.