it's not funny

I cant do this.
I cant sit here and pretend that nothing happened.
Something did.
I cant deny that, no matter how hard I try.
But if I lie and say that I don’t care.
There is a bigger chance that you will disappear.
And that’s the last thing I want now.
I just want to disappear
and yet I try my hardest to stand out.
Its funny the nights I’ve spent weeping, just as your sleeping.
Its funny how the pain don’t go away.
Isn’t it funny?
I don’t find it funny.
Increase the medication, im going crazy.
You can lock me away, but you wont forget me.
I know it.
And I know I wont forget you either.
Its funny how you pushed me away when I needed you most.
Its funny how I thought you were better than that.
Its funny how I trusted you and you told the world.
Isn’t it funny?
I didn’t think it was funny.