Living a Lie

I should laugh.
Should smile.
Should be happy...
But I can't.
My head is empty,
Searching for the words
To put to paper,
To make someone understand.
But it's hard to write
When you feel nothing,
Desperately wanting to feel something,
Yet all you do is draw blanks..
Blank pages before you,
Blank eyes staring
At the nothingness
That fills the void.
I should smile.
They say a smile
Can change the world,
But fake smiles is all
My world is made up of anymore.
Fake smiles,
Fake laughs,
To cover up the dead eyes
That give away the emptiness
That fills my head.
Pretending is all I do anymore,
And it helps the others ignore
The sickness that I have.
They like to pretend too;
That I'm better,
Better than I was before.
We all live in a lie.
So I guess when they say I should try,
Say that I should laugh,
Should smile,
Should be happy...
I'll lie too,
And go back to the world
Where a fake smile helps
Us all get through the day.