Rip the Veins from My Skin

Rip the veins from my skin,
Let blood pour from every inch,
I want to feel life leave me,
As I depart into a deep abyss,

Kill me quick,
I don't want to feel this,
I'm alone and scared,
I've never felt so down,

Just let it end,
I'm not ready for this world,
I'm not ready for any of this,
I just want to die,

Rip the veins from my skin,
Let blood pour from every inch,
I want to feel life leave me,
As I depart into a deep abyss,

I tried to take my life a month ago,
I wear my scars around,
Like i want to show it off,
Saying "help me, I need help."

I dug knives and razors into my arms,
Took a prescription of ativan,
Left a goodbye note for my parents,
Then sat in a tub until i bled out,

I'm hollow,
I tried to fill my head with drugs,
Coke, xanax, weed, percs,
They just made it worse,

Now I'm at the edge of my seat,
Looking down below,
Absent minded,
I just stare alone,

I'm trying to change,
I've cut my friends out of my life,
Going to meetings,
Taking IOP,

Nothings changed,
I'm still the exact same,
As broken as before,
Maybe worse,

Rip the veins from my skin,
Let blood pour from every inch,
I want to feel life leave me,
As I depart into a deep abyss

I've snapped so many times,
Tried to take my own life so many times,
But it never worked out,
I'm still here,

Just crawled up in a dark corner,
Barely breathing,
Sore to hell,
Self inflicted scars everywhere,
Crying in agony.