Cuddle Dream Shudder Die

Cuddle dream shudder die
repulsed by the shadows
drawn across your face
bitter shallow heart

repulsed by those who
want me
and staring at
those who aren't

cuddle dream shudder die
nefarious gods look down from the sky
if you love me, I'll let you
then let you alone

How vastly empty am I
when I think
there's no one to love
or no one good enough?

Cuddle dream shudder die
I pull your skin tight
under my hand
pleasure a home

Soft velvet shade
in which I lay
cobalt in color
in it on the floor

Cuddle dream shudder die
but why
in this maddening light
do we fall prey?

What do we gain
two people sane
by dancing this dance
in my dimmed dreamland

Cuddle dream shudder die
warm in arms
dreaming pleasant future
shudders from the force

I die dreaming, warmth
of what we could be
if only
we were meant to be.