My Cure

Ever feel like you're not enough
Like your best is never THE best
Like your lower than the rest
Like your always short of the quest,
See you may be a 9, but never a 10,
May be a buddy, but never the best friend,
So close to the finish line, but never reaching the end,
Disappointing without even trying,
How could you love me, please stop lying,
I hate myself, I'm internally dying,
I'm fucked up in the head, all these voices won't be quiet,
Mental wars in my mind, I can't control the riot,
I just can't fucking fight it,
To add to the list of problems, that run throughout my head
Depression, anxiety, and ocd make me feel dead,
My demons won't leave me alone, they strive to be fed,
The darkness closes in on me,
Panic attacks, I cannot breathe,
Ocd fixing and checking everything,
I don't know myself, I'm battling my mind,
I don't know what to look for, what am I supposed to find,
I'm scared and lost, please don't leave me behind,
Please don't walk away, your cure to this disease,
I'll do anything to keep you, I'll beg on my knees,
Just promise me you'll stay, promise you won't leave.