Broken Illusions

I know I always say that I'm glad it didn't happen, that the moment was ripped away. I am glad it didn't happen, that you didn't take the blow. There I was. Alone and heartbroken. There you were, in no state better than me. I wish there was a spark, I wanted something to mend my shattered heart, to numb the pain, but it wasn't you. I know I always say these words but it breaks my heart a little more to hear you say the same.