I Thought

I thought I was doing so well
I thought I had stopped listening to them
I thought I was strong
I thought I was cured
I thought I had finally beaten them
But I thought wrong
So very, very wrong
I don't know how they did it, but they did
They wormed their way back in
Back into my brain
Back into my heart
Back into my life
Back into everything that makes me who I am
In some weird way though, I missed them
I missed how they held me at night while I cried
Their embraces painfully tight, yet comforting
Their voices harsh, yet soothing
Telling me it will be okay
That I'm where I belong
That they will always be there for me
I believe them too
I believe in them
I want to follow they're every command
So I did
I welcomed back Ana and Mia
My dear friends