Emotionally Torn

Your arm is laying across my waist
But I don't feel the weight.
Instead I just feel empty,
Lost inside your embrace.
I want you to hold me closer,
But the liquor took its toll...
Your asleep,
And I'm alone.
Ignored.
Abandoned.
Saddened by my thoughts,
Thoughts of you.
I thought you loved me.
But you pushed me away.
I thought you were the only thing
That could make me happy...
Tonight I learned you can also
Take that happiness away,
And I'm scared of depending on you
To keep me sane.
I count on you to hold me tight,
To keep me safe,
But not tonight..
All I want is you,
You to hold me close
And tell me everything's ok.
Except when I turn to look
At your sleeping figure,
Wanting you to wake,
All I feel is pain.
Yes,
I want you to hold me,
But how can I stand your touch
When your the reason I feel
This way?
Yet I need you just the same..