Walls and Clocks

All final attempts
have been made in vain
calls, skype, email
fall on deaf ears again

so with all things
said and done
I put my walls back up
until my time has come

I've set my timer
3 years i've said
if before that time
I don't end up dead

The Gate has closed
key lost to the wind
until my goals are achieved
guards!, let no one in

30 lbs lost
80 more to go
from theses fingers of mine
music has begun to flow

listen carefully
and hear that river
which flows in you
from a hearts quiver

these walls form my cocoon
in which I shall change
bettering myself
before emerging again

To love absent cause
is how one knows its pure
to be in love
for now, one can't endure

I shall now fade, into the mist
actions state I shall not be missed
farewell memories, old and new
annyeong, jana, I bid you adieu