I Will Not

I will not give in to these battles within,
The struggle is real and the pain is my sin
Old battles fight against the new
Civil war between one, not two.

I will not go back to live in the past
Old memories fade, they’re forgotten fast
Yet chains still hold as strong as steel
Biting deep, the hurt is real.

I will not hold on to haunted me
I’ll let her go into memory
But will use her wounds as lessons learned
To accept the love I’ve long so yearned.

I will not bite my tongue at last
Things I could’ve said are passed
Don’t break my heart, it’s been there before
Emotional lover with a deep cold core.