Mother, Smother
Sometimes,
I hate you.
And sometimes,
I wish you dead.
And sometimes,
I want to be the one that kills you.
But I cannot wish suffering and sadness upon you
despite the pain you might cause me.
Sometimes,
I wish you dead
but I’d be sad
if you were.
I hate you.
And sometimes,
I wish you dead.
And sometimes,
I want to be the one that kills you.
But I cannot wish suffering and sadness upon you
despite the pain you might cause me.
Sometimes,
I wish you dead
but I’d be sad
if you were.
♠ ♠ ♠
Circa 2014. I was going through a rough patch with my mum a couple years ago and I was struggling with the intrusive thoughts it would bring after she upset me, so I wrote this. Don't worry, I don't actually want to kill her. Just, in the moment, I was very deeply hurt and the intrusive thoughts were making me angry, so I wrote them down instead.