See Lately...

See lately I've had this desire to stop breathing
It's something I haven't felt in a while,
Like since the last love left,
Or when the brother moved away,
Or the dad stopped replying,
Or the other dad stopped replying,
Or maybe when she evaporated into her self...
I'm not sure exactly when the last time was,
I just know it's been years,
And I thought I was okay,
I thought the desire to bleed had left this body I call mine.
I was wrong.
And I don't know who to tell about this ache to disappear
I don't know if I can live through this one...
I don't know if I want to.