IRL

Murder on my mind
I can't escape these fucking feelings inside
I'm going mad at the sight
They see my face they see that everything's fine
These are the things that no one sees
The things that no one feels
They exist to only me
And I'm tainted with this hell

I probably sound deranged, insane.
I assure you that things are not what they seem
I am dead, you are dead
Or its just my fucking head
Reality seems far too different now

When I go to sleep at night
I dream of bodies, I dream of blight
I see people slaughtered at my feet
Their bodies stack, am I mad?!
Is it really just a dream??
Their jaws are slack..
The stench of death washes through me
I stand before the scene of genocide.
Performed by my own bare fucking hands...

I dream of things you can't imagine
And I, just say that I'm fine
I keep on telling these lies
But inside.
Inside,
I'm just dying inside
I'm just dying to find
The fucking sense in my mind
An eye to the storm
But everywhere I look
It's fucking CHAOS.

AM I GOING...
iNSANE

AM I going..

I can't help myself..
Falling to my knees
I'm burning in hell
I can no longer fucking plead
For salvation..

.

They ask me where I see myself in five years..
I'm not even sure if I'm alive.
How can I answer with such a fucking disguise
I don't even know if I'm alive!

Every waking moment of my life
I am fucking empty inside
Sometimes the void,
It crushes me,
It brings me down

When I'm not alone I can project my feelings.
But when I'm by myself I feel nothing at all.

I have no empathy
I have no sympathy
I have no sanity
I am only apathy
I don't give a single fuck..
About anybody else..

I see no worth in the common man,
I get disgusted by their aura
I am annoyed with the confrontation
Just fucking off yourself!
You waste my time!
What the fuck!

..

I probably fucking sound insane.
I only have myself to blame

I am tortured by myself
I am my apocalypse
I am my hell
I am tortured by myself
I am the end of all
That I have ever held.