Legs Wide Open but Tears Falling from Her Eyes

with legs wide open I look for love
isn't that funny no matter how far we go
I can not stretch and find it
with every time I give them a piece of me
it slowly dose not matter to me
ive become so numb to this
than out of nowhere it breaks me
legs wide open I lost every ounce of pride of self value
I cry I burst into tears
I wonder how I became this monster
than I think back to the start
I did it thinking he would stay I love you
be my wife lets be together forever
how stupid
how idiotic
thinking this was love
legs wide open and eyes shut I could not see what is in front of me
how do I look in the mirror with my mistakes looking me in the face
wishing it to go I stop looking move on like nothing happened
while inside the guilt and emotions tear me apart
is it funny
you learned to let go of me walking away with a part of me
I was so willing to give away
knowing it would never come back.
legs wide open I sacrifice a piece of myself
hoping you will love me
do I not do everything right
or am I just this stupid
I give them my all
but in return I get nothing at all
I fell for the dream that
thought we could be
how stupid
how idiotic
with a heart full of hate and legs wide open
I dive deep into an ocean so blue
soon I loss all thoughts of them
I am brand new
I look into the mirror and I see it
I have completely transformed into another version of you
with legs wide open I cry
I begin to wish I could die
the mistakes I have made become so much
no words can change the way I feel
I look in the mirror
and I do not see the woman I have always wished to be
I see an empty shell of what I use to be