Warmth in the Darkness

Better days have come of me,
Days of sun and shine,
The warmth of rays setting me free,
When I asked you to be mine

Now the sun will shine again,
But dismal will I keep,
Bask in sorrow and bask in pain,
From deep wounds will darkness seep

That doesn't mean I won't eventually be happy,
But these wounds will leave lasting scars,
For every kiss and moments sweet and sappy,
Your absent burns my heart, it agonizingly chars

Cold and lonely so I sit,
But watch from afar as you move on,
You smile, you laugh with your passion and determination lit,
I find myself smiling too as your life births potential compared to none

Wrapped in a blanket of an old friend long since forbidden,
Darkness, my home, my familiar, my first inspiration returned,
It's touch warm with fresh ideas, lasting emotion to be written,
To rewrite happy endings, to push me forward to the life I once strongly yearned

To be shrouded in darkness helped me see myself once more,
Being deep and expressing ones pain openly is desired for healing,
Darkness is not bad, it is my light and my way of mind, my lore,
It is my love, the hand that guides my pen with the deepest meaning

And to that I must not waste life lessons presented to me,
I will be selfless and selfish all the same, find that sweet in between,
I will follow every passion my heart beats for, be who I want to be,
With a cloak of shadow draped around me, I will make myself seen

I will smile for myself and the unknown days to come,
One day it won't be forced, I'll smile contently with a glint in my eyes,
I'll learn to heal, I'll learn to grow and live and never claim I'm done,
I'll be a new me, but me I shall stay, saying yes to wherever my heart lies

I'll be cold no longer, nor wishing for past days,
Basking in the embrace of shadows, I'll look forward to tomorrow,
With hope guiding my hand in harmony with dark ways,
I'll know that to drown in darkness is to flood with love rather than sorrow,
I'll let that be my new confidence to listen to what my heart says,
To find warmth in the darkness, I know who now to follow...
♠ ♠ ♠
( Welp thank you if you read all that sop to the end and if you're reading this little message now. That's pretty cool of you if you did and I really appreciate it - especially since I've not written poetry or anything in a very long time and wasn't initially planning to either. I hope this wasn't too bad, I've got a lot on my mind that I felt like expressing that through written nonsense rather than just through my drawings, so if you enjoyed it I may try and write more in the future. Thank you.