Hold Back

Yes, I hold back my emotions.
Because of it,
My pain is deeper than bruised arms or sliced skin.
My smile is left in fragments.
Maybe...
Maybe the cure is love.

Why do I hold back then?
I'm too busy to love.
Too busy being afraid.
Afraid of the pain, afraid of the grief.
I'm afraid of the vulnerability.

The cure is right in front of me.
Is it worth the possible suffering?
I can't get hurt again.
I take care of myself by shutting myself away.

I don't know what to do.