Thank You

Let me ask you:

Have you made peace with the doubts that creep up your throat to settle in the heaviness of your tongue?

You're teaching me:

If you could only unravel your thoughts, To make them a lesson, To make them the undoing of ignorance like this:
A girl hiding alone in the bathroom.
Or a child clawing at the color of their skin.
Or someone who is too ill to go back to school.
Then do it.
Unravel your thoughts.

You're teaching me:

Sometimes, the ghosts of your grievance are an amplifier plugged to your chest.
They sound the beat of your frustration, Shining a light on what others can’t see. The only thing they gain from their spite is:
The possibility for greater tragedies.
Sometimes, hurting is a strength.

I am not perfect.

I roll my eyes a lot and half the things that come out of my mouth are laced with sarcasm.

I don’t take care of myself and I’ll fight everyone through my stubbornness.

But I can say I do listen, more than you think I do.
I hear every single word you say and I know you better than I know myself.
I care way too much.
But I will never want to hurt you.
If I some how do,
Know this:
It will hurt me more than it will hurt you.
I am not perfect.
But I try to be perfect for you.

You're teaching me:

There will be many more stormy nights and hazy days.

Right now,
You are sunlight peaking through stained glass.
You are the sunset in between trees.
You are the view of the vast ocean.

You make me happy.
Like long walks in the rain.
Like music when you forget your speakers but you sing out louder anyway.

You're a mystery to me sometimes.

I have an obvious passion for something more alluring.

I like to think I abandon war in favor of calming waters.
I don't always.
But you have made and created beauty in my eyes.
You make me calm.
You make me quiet. (I don't get a lot of those moments.)

I can not thank you enough.

The other day,
The rain threw itself hard into the pavement.
I watched as it bounced off the ground 
and dissipated into the air

I thought about your smile.

The sky split and the earth groaned.
I thought about your laugh and how calming and beautiful it is.

I thought about you 
and the way you make me feel like the rain-
dissipating.

And I will never leave, even if I got to see everything what you have locked inside of you.

I’m so glad we met;
And for whatever time we do have,
And all the memories and moments to come,

I pray that the world will be kinder, will be softer.