Don't Send Me Home (Fear)
I shouldn't have to fear my own home,
But when I'm here, I feel so alone
I shouldn't have to fear what I do,
But everything always revolves around you
I shouldn't have to fear what I say,
But we don't know how you'll react that day
I shouldn't have to fear being strong,
But you make me only ever feel wrong
I shouldn't fear having to show emotion,
But I know that it'll only always ever cause a commotion
I shouldn't want to walk out that door,
But I'm tired of feeling like I've been kicked to the floor
I shouldn't have to fear my family,
But to you, that's all you ever want me to see
But when I'm here, I feel so alone
I shouldn't have to fear what I do,
But everything always revolves around you
I shouldn't have to fear what I say,
But we don't know how you'll react that day
I shouldn't have to fear being strong,
But you make me only ever feel wrong
I shouldn't fear having to show emotion,
But I know that it'll only always ever cause a commotion
I shouldn't want to walk out that door,
But I'm tired of feeling like I've been kicked to the floor
I shouldn't have to fear my family,
But to you, that's all you ever want me to see
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This has been going on for months and I'm to the point where I'm numb inside. I fear going home because of the mental abuse. I won't say who is causing it since it won't change anything at all, but I'm just over the whole thing. I'm tired, exhausted, and fed up. That's why when the boss lady offers to send me home, I always tell her no.