Worst Kind of Drumroll

What I don't need
Is a drumroll
That fills me with excitement
And glee and anticipation
Ending in disappointment
A wave crashing towards me
Incredibly offbeat
Making me want to flee
Take flight
Travel far enough away
To where
The drumroll is not hovering
Over my sunny day
Like a storm cloud
Filling the clear sky
Leaving me empty
Filling my body
My heart's levy
To my dismay
My mind hasn't been made